ashjds. so broken.

[almosthonest]

Good lord, I don't think I can handle TV anymore. I am just--so broken right now. My heart is shattered. CSI: Miami just completely broke my heart into tiny little pieces. And I so want to go grab my beloved red-haired boyfriend and hug him. Even though I so knew it would happen in this episode, I still couldn't help but bawl. And I mean I bawled like a friggin' baby. FOUR TIMES!! My three Kleenexes are soaked, let me tell you.

Watched the first hour of Grey's Anatomy and cried then too. I then proceeded to get updates from Trista, who would call me on commercial breaks and we'd cry together. She taped GA for me, and I taped Miami for her. We're exchanging tapes on Wednesday.

Ann Donahue, I hate you so much right now. Seriously, dude. Not pleased with you. I know you let him tell her he loved her, but good lord, woman. Make the pain stop, please.

Trista and I both said we were emotionally spent after tonight. I can't handle this! Eep. And NY on Wednesday will hurt me more. Why was I not warned about seeing a certain someone in the promo being all bloody and cradled by Mac? Whoever didn't warn me is so fired, because I saw the cap on CSIFiles today and cried.

I don't know if I can handle next Monday either. Not after what happened tonight. Bastards.

I'm going to go cry some more now. I do, however, have more fodder to use to plan and plot my Horatio/Marisol fic series. Sheesh. It's SO going AU now, that is all I have to say.

Comments

[afteriwake.livejournal.com]

Please make it an AU where nothing catastrophicly bad happens. Because I seriously don't think I could take it, and I really do want to read it.

[callmedirk.livejournal.com]

Heh. Hence the AU. It'll start out still with her being sick, but nothing past that. The remission still happens, as does the marriage, but nothing too sad and catastrophic. I refuse to write a sad series. I couldn't take it.

Besides, there's children to be had by these two, dang it.

[afteriwake.livejournal.com]

Yes! Children! Because H is probably the only character on any of the series who doesn't already have kids who I think would be a good parent. Except maybe Nick, if he could get over all the crap they've put him through.

When you write this, I'm going to be first in line to read it...

And now I want to go make a H/Marisol icon. From the wedding. When there was happiness.

[callmedirk.livejournal.com]

I agree. H would be an amazing father. And I agree that Nick would as well! But there will definitely be H/Mari children in this series. At least two. A son and daughter for sure.

Hee. Thanks. That means a lot. I'm hoping to sit down and figure out how many fics I'm going to do soon.

Ahh, the wedding. They looked so beautiful and happy. They looked so happy when they were having breakfast together in Rampage. It's the first time I've ever heard H say "I love you" to someone and I got weepy. I wanted them happy, dang it.

[fairyqueen5984.livejournal.com]

I know you don't know me, and I know this is totally random, but I'm like, searching everyone trying to find someone who can tell me how the last 20 minutes of CSI: Miami went! Because of the presidents address, my taping didn't catch the last 20 minutes, and I'm totally upset about it!

Do you mind letting me know what happened? It would be totally awesome! Thanks, and sorry for just randomly commenting on your journal!

[callmedirk.livejournal.com]

I don't mind at all. Don't apologize for commenting! I like random. *g*

Let's see...the last 20 minutes, give or take. Forgive the long-windedness, because a lot happened. Delko's ex-girlfriend Gloria is absolutely crazy, and was the original planned shooter of Marisol, because she though Mari was Delko's wife. Um, let's see, Ryan and the SWAT team captured most of the Mala Noche gang at some little island getaway place. The ringleader guy got away.

Marisol died at the hospital of her injuries, and lord, it was a sad scene. Eric and H vowed to get the driver of the car that stopped the ambulance earlier in the episode. They found him, and the scene was excellent. You see a car in the middle of nowhere, and you see it stop and a pair of dress shoes step out. You hear a "hey! let me out!" and you see H standing there and then Eric appears. They open the trunk and there's the Mala Noche gang member in there. They toss him out on the ground and point guns at him, telling him he better talk and tell them who put the hit out on Marisol or he's a dead man.

The guy tells them that the kid that said he wouldn't be a snitch is the one that ordered the hit, and boy, that ticks H off. He tells him to tell the kid that he's a dead man, and it fades to black with a To Be Continued logo.

Next week, it continues, AND we find out who the mole is. Whee! Hope that helped you out a bit!

[fairyqueen5984.livejournal.com]

Yeah, so that helps me out ALOT! Thanks SO much! I was totally freaking out! And I cannot WAIT to find out who the mole is!

Man, I wish I could have seen it, because I love when Horatio is all like, emotional. He never shows emotion. But it's said that Mari had to die! As much as I saw that coming, at the same time I didn't, ya know?

Thanks again!

[callmedirk.livejournal.com]

I can't wait to see who the mole is either. It'll sure be something.

Yeah, and he didn't show much emotion last night either. He looked so drawn and sad, but he never said much when she died, just clenched his jaw and stared out the window, which so makes it worse.

You're very welcome!

[fairyqueen5984.livejournal.com]

:D

Also, do you mind if I friend you? We seem to have ALOT more in common then just csi: miami!

[callmedirk.livejournal.com]

I don't mind at all. I'll add you back.