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almosthonestWas rereading Unpredictable last night and I started editing it. And I was looking at it, and realized how pathetically lame it really is. I went back and changed some names and things and got rid of using Josh, because it looks stupid in the fic. I haven't even finished reading it, but I suddenly really just...want it overhauled. But I sure as heck am not going to do it. However, it did give me a drive to finish it sometime soon. Maybe by the end of the year. (yeah right. I have two other fics that are WAY more important right now...heh). But--I think I'm going to write up a little thing for the site asking if anyone would like to have free reign and write the final couple of chapters, and then I can write the epilogue. I don't know if anyone would be interested, but I figure it is worth a try, being that I have little time to sit down and write anymore.
And speaking of co-authors, or in this case, ex best-friends. I saw something yesterday and had that old urge to call her and gush. And as I recall, I actually reached over to pick up the phone. And then I realized how stupid that was. And how much I'm still hurt and angry. And I think about now how many people still trust her. I regret trusting her a lot. I regret feeling sorry for her and trying to help for so long. Yet I DO feel sorry for her that she does the crap she does. And I'm not apologizing for my words, because I don't have to anymore, and because very few people understand anyway. I don't have to be sorry for being mean anymore. I am not obligated to be nice about it all. I was too nice for too dang long and I'm tired of it.
And yeah, maybe I'm dwelling, but after 6+ years of friendship, I think I have the freaking right to dwell.
Suddenly, my morning has turned cranky. This is bad.
I think I'd better get off of here before I say something I really, really don't mean. I AM sorry, however, if anyone is offended by this, I know some of you are still friends with my ex-friend. I apologize if this made you uncomfortable.
But I'm not sorry I spoke my mind. Not anymore.
Am off to go...read The Return Of The King again and attempt to cheer up a bit. That, or start Annie's surprise pairing birthday fic. *smirk*.
Love to everyone.
And man, how much do I love a certain poser player right now? Very much. He amuses me. Hee.</small
And speaking of co-authors, or in this case, ex best-friends. I saw something yesterday and had that old urge to call her and gush. And as I recall, I actually reached over to pick up the phone. And then I realized how stupid that was. And how much I'm still hurt and angry. And I think about now how many people still trust her. I regret trusting her a lot. I regret feeling sorry for her and trying to help for so long. Yet I DO feel sorry for her that she does the crap she does. And I'm not apologizing for my words, because I don't have to anymore, and because very few people understand anyway. I don't have to be sorry for being mean anymore. I am not obligated to be nice about it all. I was too nice for too dang long and I'm tired of it.
And yeah, maybe I'm dwelling, but after 6+ years of friendship, I think I have the freaking right to dwell.
Suddenly, my morning has turned cranky. This is bad.
I think I'd better get off of here before I say something I really, really don't mean. I AM sorry, however, if anyone is offended by this, I know some of you are still friends with my ex-friend. I apologize if this made you uncomfortable.
But I'm not sorry I spoke my mind. Not anymore.
Am off to go...read The Return Of The King again and attempt to cheer up a bit. That, or start Annie's surprise pairing birthday fic. *smirk*.
Love to everyone.
And man, how much do I love a certain poser player right now? Very much. He amuses me. Hee.</small
