Writing Rambles

[almosthonest]

So, I think I may have had an epiphany today. And it all comes about from something Jane said to me yesterday, and from watching the Extended LotR DVD with the Director/Writers commentary on.

I'll start with something rather Rings related. I think karelian will appreciate this. *g* I was watching the second disc of the DVD and listening to Peter, Fran, and Philippa, and I just fell in love with how Philippa obviously adores Sean Bean and Viggo. And how it's pretty obvious that Boromir is one of her favorites, which leads me to truly think and beleive that she understands Boromir. Which I think is a hard thing to do, although I know I understand Boromir and his thoughts and what the conflict in his heart is. But I think as a writer, she (and Fran and Peter) had to understand more, and dig deeper to find him. And I think she found him. That is how I want to be--able to dig down and understand my characters as if I were them. And now that I've listened to the commentary and watched Boromir's final scene, I see how much the writers (or, in my opinion, Philippa specifically) care about the people they were writing about and working with. It's rather inspiring.

Which brings me to something Jane said to me yesterday while we were driving home from the baseball game.

We were talking about writing and I mentioned that I had had another vision of one of my novel characters. And she told me that maybe I am meant to write this novel. And I think I am starting to believe that myself. I have never felt this feeling before.

it's kind of like how I feel I am meant to be in the new fandom I love and adore. I feel so--welcome, if you will. It just feels right, which I don't think I ever felt in popslash. I felt right with the WaJu, that goes without saying, but in the other? Never felt welcome.

I think I feel comfortable writing again. Making it something I love once again. I'm--dang it, I think I'm happy again.

Am off to stop rambling. Must find something to do before I go to work later ;) Forgive my rambly post about things that have infiltrated my brain today.

Comments

[bookofdays.livejournal.com]

Well it's nice to see you happy like that when it comes to writing. Some Sara!Writing around is always nice. It's so great that you're inspired for you novel! Go you! :-)

And you already know how I feel about the new fandom. I feel it too but probably on a less deep level. But yeah, it's a nice fandom so far who welcomes everyone. I quite like it myself. :-)

I hope work won't be too hard on you tonight! Love you!

[callmedirk.livejournal.com]

I honestly think Craig, Viggo, Bean, Karl, and Keith are responsible for the inspiration. Personality wise, anyway. They are all mixed up in my characters.

Strange, that.

I think, for once, a fandom means something to me. If that makes any sense.

*hugs* Love you too. Thank you for--everything. 27 days!

[karelian]

Ohh, I do appreciate it! I remember just being DEAD the first time I heard Philippa say "almost like lovers" about Aragorn and Boromir, and rewinding three times to make sure I hadn't heard wrong. And then all her drooling over Sean during Boromir's last stand! *sighs* Must rewatch the director's commentary soon!

[callmedirk.livejournal.com]

She is awesome. And I still can't find the "almost like lovers" part. Unless I just never catch it. Any idea about when it is?
I LOVE how she gushes about Sean. It's awesome. So much love for Philippa.

Actually, I watched the director's commentary because you had talked about Philippa over in rugbytackle, so I thank you in part for my epiphany yesterday. *laughs*

[karelian]

It's at the end of the scene where A and B are arguing on the riverbank -- the one that isn't in the theatrical release ("Yes, there is weakness to be found in men, there is frailty, but there is honor also!") Peter says that they wanted A and B to go to Amon Hen estranged, because there was a lot of warmth in the scene between them in Rivendell and he thought it would be more poignant if they'd been fighting before Boromir's sacrifice. And Philippa chimes in, "It's almost like lovers..."

And then she and Fran proceed to have a dispute about whether A and B would even have an argument of this sort at this point in their relationship, now that they're so close. *g* (In the actor's commentary this is where Sean says he doesn't think the men are going to talk to each other for the next couple of days...)

[callmedirk.livejournal.com]

Thank you! I will have to go and watch that part again. I remember the dispute part, but my brain and ears must not have caught the "almost like lovers" part. *laughs*